Vanity & Sin

Side Note

Today we get the results for my mom's CAT scan of her lungs, she is really panicky. I am praying for the best, but sometimes certain emotions just can't be set aside...anger, love, devotion and even hate. I think that sums up how I feel the majority of the time! Such extremes for one person to tackle day in and day out, but what can you do? Until our lives are what we make it and what we want it to be, what do they expect me to do? Fake it? I don't pretend anymore, it got me stuck square in this hellish place in the first place...

Pretending is for the lost, reality is for the forsaken...I think I am caught somewhere in the middle.

My worst enemy is my own reality.