Vanity & Sin

Funny, Life is...

I was just re-reading some previous entries... I really was a lost girl. I was scared to be alone, and angry at my husband (he had pushed me around a bit when I started this blog) - I have a tendency to be a decisive, ballsy, bitch. I obviously didn't have the balls to DO anything - and then he is killed - and now I just don't know WTF. We collided - two powerful people trying to maintain control. I still loved him. And it was NEVER boring.

I am a destructive broad and loud about it. And then I just rebuild and move on. I am kind of going through that now.. rebuilding, but rather than my life...I am rebuilding my 'self' and it really kinda sucks that it took something like this to make me face my self and my reality of who I am.

I didn't go running to anybody on my good days with my husband...which surprisingly were more often than I let on. Now look at me... Yes, folks - I have a tendency to be a mook. (Mook = idiot)