Vanity & Sin

2006

Okay - a mild update...I am functional, back on my meds - and as fucked as ever. Practically homeless, I can't even afford to move right now. I don't even have money to get me through another week... what else can I sell this weekend? I am considering another garage sale to see what else I can make on some of this furniture - so I can buy fucking dog food. I don't even buy groceries because I can't afford to. I eat at work, or granola cereal that is months old. You have to do what you need to to survive. I am fighting one helluva an uphill battle right now. And every idea seems to keep falling through, every plan a flop - so now I am probably going to have to move in with my brother. Jeezus - can it get any worse?

New Year's was a blast, thank goodness...it's about as much fun as I may have for a while. I spent next to nothing, had a great time and met the most fantastic guy. In a platonic - thank you god sort of way. Let's just say I feel human again! And he's really hot too - I am moving up in the world folks. Yeah, that's a vain remark - bite me. I'd rather indulge myself in vanity and sin right now anyway...at least its more fun than the reality of my fucked up life. Since Matt's died - my world has been a mess... and nothing seems to be improving... WTF? I am at the point where I just don't care anymore.