Vanity & Sin

Darn It!!

I just found my boyfriend a better paying job than MINE! I am happy for him, but crap. He's a sweetheart and already taking me out to spoil and thank me.. I just needed to vent, cuz I actually make good money - but he's got a specialty and I found him his dream job. I am so happy for him!! And...now newly motivated to move on a bit quicker with my career... We are both some success driven maniacs!!

Sanity Update...

So I haven't been good at updating and posting.. been busy! Time for me to make a few changes... a few alterations to my so-called-life... I am a bit tired of the constant foot to my proverbial balls... I need to move on. And now.

We all wake up one day and realize certain things in our lives are still important, others aren't - not all dreams come true... you can make up any story you want regarding 'why' things happen, but its easier to just see it, accept it - and move on. Maybe this is maturity - or maybe I am going insane. But I am grateful to finally put aside a lot of the crap and trek forward with my life at last. Some things just don't seem as bad - people seem more understanding, and not just playing cute.. whispering "be nice to her, she's a widow...oh she's so young." F-That. I am a grown ass woman and I want more, I won't settle for less - from a person, a job, a boss - a friend.

It's been 8 months, and I can officially say that I am finally happy again. It was a rough road getting here and worth every step!

I found what I've been looking for...

Good day to ME! Been having the most wonderful evenings for the past few days... some things are evolving in the right direction. I, Miss Bea, am a 24 year old widow - dating a 22 year old hottie. NOW: we have had a mutual agreement that we both don't want anything too serious, none of that emotional dramatic bullshit, just have fun - enjoy each other and LIVE. It's working out in ways I never thought! Sure, we spend a lot of time together - BUT its more like we are adventure buddies... there is never a dull moment!

I am just glad that I am a still human, living my life to the fullest and no longer hesitating with the things I want in life, and enjoying them with someone that likes to do the crazy things I like to do... We just sort of feed each other's energies...and love spending time together.

So we are going to jump out of a hot air balloon when it warms up - go shooting (he's getting a glock for me to play with!!) - and do just about whatever our little hearts desire...

I have never felt so stress free in a 'relationship' in my life... Thank you GOD, because I like my life as simple as possible right now, and I found the right person.