Vanity & Sin

Update May 2007

Where to start? I am alive and well! That is a good start..

On a personal level, I am once again at wits end with the male species. I guess I am growing up, or 'maturing'. I have absolutely had it with 'raising' men. I can't do it, I don't want to do it - I am nobody's momma, and I am not starting now. I have contemplated a lot just what it is I am supposed to do with this realization. For months I have hoped that things would work themselves out, but they aren't and I feel that they are getting worse. How do you dump the nicest guy you've ever dated - because he acts like a 15 year old 80% of the time? I have completely lost interest, I could care less if we even hug each other before work. This is awful for both of us, but unfortunately, once again I get to be the bad guy.

Like my daddy's always said: I am a little hearbreaker. Maybe he is right. I can't do this anymore. To myself or anyone else.

I think I should just reinvent myself to emulate 'Patsy' from AbFab...single, old hot chick that burns people with cigarettes that piss her off, vodka always on hand. Hmmmm, I may be on to something there! I guess this year is another growing and evolving experience.