Vanity & Sin

Another Day, Another Resignation...

Reading the news this morning, it took a few seconds to let it sink in just who resigned from office today.. Our very own Attorney General, Alberto Gonzales has resigned. This is only the FOURTH TOP RANKING ADMINISTRATION OFFICIAL that has left the White House.

Does anyone else notice a problem?

My Immortal

Matthew A. Williams
4/12/80 - 8/22/05

Happy Anniversary to the moments that change lives forever...
Your love still lights my way...

You're Not Alone

You're Not Alone
Open Your Mind

In a way its all, a matter of time
I will not worry for you, You'll be just fine
Take my thoughts with you, and when you look behind
You will surely see a face that you recognize

You're not alone I'll wait till the end of time
Open your mind, Surely it's plain to see
You're not alone, I'll wait till the end of time for you
Open your mind, Surely it's time to be with me

It is the distance
that makes life a little hard
Two minds that once were close
now so many miles a part
I will not falter though
I'll hold on 'till your home
Safely back where you belong
See how our love has grown

You're not alone, I'll wait till the end of time
Open your mind, Surely its plane to see
You're not alone, Ill wait 'till the end of time
Open your mind, baby theres time for me and you

You're not alone, I'll wait till the end of time
Open your mind, Surely its plain to see

You're not alone
You're not alone
I'll wait till the end of time

Open your mind
Surely there is time to be with me

Prelude to the Anniversary

The lovely psychiatrists & doctors have deemed my husband's murderer "incompetent" and "unrestorable" - meaning that he will be relocated to a State mental hospital indefinitely until restored. Also meaning that the charges must be dropped by the prosecution for Murder in the First Degree. If he is 'restored' and released a FREE MAN from the mental ward, then we can re-file the charges.

I guess the S.O.B. isn't cooperating with the doctors either OR taking his meds. I just can't believe this ~ and there is a part of me that thinks it is my fault. What if it would have been different if I had made every court hearing? Would that have helped? Or is the judicial system just that warped ~ and defective.

The next hearing date is on the eve of the 2 year anniversary of Matt's death. I'll be there, and I am going to be pissed. I hope that bastard feels every ice filled, hateful glare I have in store for him ~ because I have lost faith, and I feel like I have lost Matt all over again.

Why is this happening? Some things I just don't understand, but they sure know how to rip apart sore wounds...

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here