Vanity & Sin

Almost 23 Weeks...

And less than 17 to go. How scary is that?! Scary enough for me.

I have been poor about updating this - because frankly, I believe this baby is literally eating my brain! Yes! Chunks at a time ~ and it's driving me bananas. I am doing well - things are well, the baby is well...yay! All is well. I am getting used to this newfound round belly-body that seems to take up more space than I anticipated. You know you're getting big when your belly bumps into everything. Oh yeah..fun stuff!

This whole process is definitely the closest to insanity that I've known in a while. And on top of that - I am having a girl. My brain seems to be absorbing all of this at a very slow pace - but I don't mind that. I need the slower pace to help me get through these days of pre-motherhood. Women are insane if they want to do this multiple times.

All in all it's just another day in the life of Bea ~ and this is the calmer version! More to come when I can type with my feet up and sprawled out since breathing comfortably upright is my next adventure to adjust to..good ol' belly!

Eyes

Missed the last train home,
Birds pass by to tell me that I'm not alone.

Overpushing myself to finish this part,
Handle a lot,
One I thing I miss,
It's in your eyes,
In your eyes [6x]

Have you seen this film?
It reminds me of walking through the avenues.

Washing my hands,
Attachment scared,
Land on the Ground,
One thing I miss,
It's in your eyes,
In your eyes [6x]

By Rogue Wave

Almost 19 weeks...

First of all...YIKES. I am almost 19 weeks pregnant ~ still going strong...and going batty over all the wacky physical changes that this whole process entails. Good news is that it is almost half way over?

But the reason for my post is that in 2 weeks from today... I will find out whether I am having a girl or a boy...and dammit...I am prayin for that boy!!

And Derek is a supertrooper - he really is. I am really happy that we are sticking this out and experiencing every step together... It's nice to have someone put in that extra effort for ME. And it's worth my effort for him... I think I am finally discovering the reality of relationships and the work that it takes to make them last - and yes, it's difficult, but worth it when you know what you want.